7 Things I’m Afraid to Tell You…

A few years ago, I came across a blog post by another coach titled “Things I’m Afraid to Tell You”. 

At this point, I can’t remember who that was, but I was intrigued by the concept and shared a few things with my tribe that I too was afraid to share and today I’m doing it again.

It’s always incredibly important to me that I be 100% honest and real with you because after all, I am only human.  You may read some of these and find that I am no longer a coach you want to follow or find that I am exactly the kind of coach you want to be a part of your life.  Either way, I know it’s all for the best.

So, without further ado (and more procrastinating) here we go!

• I just pulled the plug on the 60-Day Momentum Mastermind.  – You know that new blended program I put together and announced last week that was supposed to begin on Monday?  Yep, I pulled the plug.  The truth is, it was something I have been wanting to do for a long time (create a blended program), but something didn’t feel quite right about it.  So, instead of trying to revive it in some way, I’m pulling the plug.  There is a part of me that is slightly embarrassed, yet also incredibly relieved about it because it frees up a bit more time for me to do something else. (More on that soon.)

• I’m afraid of what you think of me.  There are times when I really overthink what I want to say to you because my intention is never to offend you or rock the boat.  There are times when I wonder if I’m “selling” too much and creating too many offers and I wonder what you might think of me because of it.  (On a deep level, I guess I just want to be liked.)  But, then I remember why I am in business to begin with.  I love what I do (most of the time) and if I am creating offers (or pulling the plug) there is a very good reason for it and who am I to keep that from YOU, especially if it’s something that could help you?  This is also the reason I was hesitant to share an article I wrote on race that was recently published on ElephantJournal.

• Sometimes I get bored with my business.  Now let me be clear, I am NEVER bored with the people I work with…ever.  But, there have been times (ahem-recently) when I have felt a bit bored with myself and my business.  I am the type of person that likes to shake things up and get really excited about new things I am offering in general and if it’s feeling a bit stagnant, my inspiration goes down the tubes and I have to regroup and reset myself.  The truth is, I’ve been feeling that way for a bit now and I’m just itching to bring in some fresh new energy to shake things up.  (Again, more on that later.) To be clear, I LOVE what I do, I love who I work with, but sometimes I don’t love the way I do things, so I have a need to switch it up.

• Sometimes I don’t feel like “enough”.  When my mind-gremlins start kicking up, I get so stuck in my head about things that I start believing the crappy thoughts that come up and I feel like I’m not enough.  Not smart enough, strong enough, clear enough, good enough, blah, blah, blah.  Most recently, I felt like I wasn’t a good enough mother.  I’m human.  Sometimes these are quiet thoughts in the back of my mind and other times they can take me to my knees and make me cry uncle, but I always come out the other side stronger, because I know that this is just another part of the up-leveling process for me.

• I am a lesbian.  I realize that many of you know this about me already and it shouldn’t even be a “thing”.  I get that, but I’d be lying to you if I told you that even after being ‘out’ for close to 15 years now (plus being married to the woman of my dreams and having a family too) that there isn’t a part of me that worries what other people might think of me because of this fact.  I also realize that for some people, this is an utter and total deal-breaker.  (There is an unsubscribe button at the bottom of this email, should this be a deal-breaker for you.  No hard feelings at all and I wish you all the love in the world.) Moving on…

• I am a card-carrying (not really) woo-woo coach & intuitive.  All this means is that I am deeply in touch with my intuition (something we all have) and I am able to feel into the circumstances, energy, and “stuff” that clients have going on pretty easily.  It’s my super-power an while it’s not something I try to explain (and to be honest, most of my clients don’t really ask) it’s 100% how I work.  I also often use oracle cards with clients and occasionally will offer to do readings for people if that’s something they are into.  (If that’s something you’re interested in let me know because I LOVE doing them.). The truth is, all of this spiritual and “woo-woo” stuff makes me the coach I am and it helps me, help you.