This week has certainly been a doozy, with much to do at work and home, both leaving me virtually brain-dead at the end of the day. I must say that I have not been in the best of moods and have found that I have been much more negative than usual. Everyday annoyances are getting to me and I am presented with so many changes at once I’m afraid I am not at my best.
I considered not posting until I was feeling more positive, but I decided that if I am going to be authentic with my writing and share my journey with you, I can’t just share the good stuff. Life ebbs and flows and as I move through it constantly learning and growing, there are bound to be down moments.
This is but one.
This week I have been hit with many changes in my work responsibilities (including more work to do), my work schedule, and new opportunities for my writing. As a person that isn’t best friends with change (especially a lot of change at once), you can imagine the discomfort that I might be feeling. It’s nothing I can’t handle and I am sure I will find a new flow and routine, but right now it’s all a bit much. Somehow accepting that fact makes dealing with it a little bit better.
Instead of complaining about how things are or wishing them to be different, I am accepting it for what it is. Not only that, but I don’t know what these changes could lead to. I am instead allowing the flow of change to occur, (after all there are some things you just can’t change) and instead changing my response. I am not fighting the current. And while I have been drained and just plain tired this week, I know it will pass and I will soon be back to my positive, energetic self.
In the meantime I will look at this moment as an opportunity to learn the lessons of patience, acceptance, and faith. Patience in my journey, acceptance for what is, and faith that all will work out how it is meant to for my highest good (of course not without a bit of action on my part).
That action right now is to take care of my immediate need for rest and relaxation. It means looking at the bright side of the changes and the possible opportunities that can come out of them. (I might actually have time to begin my book!) It means learning to welcome change instead of allowing it to turn my life upside down. It finding balance with the “new”.
But at this very moment it means taking a hot shower, getting into some comfy clothes, and getting a good night’s rest!
Good for you in practicing self-care and acceptance! That said, I hope you adjust to the changes quickly and easily so that you are feeling more yourself soon. Change (even good change) is hard stuff! Sending lots of good thoughts your way!
Thanks KJ! I am hoping this weekend I can catch up on my rest. The changes will take some getting used to, but I am opening myself whatever comes. It’s both freeing and a bit unnerving.