There have been many moments in the last 2 years when I’ve wanted to share something with you but have been afraid of what you might think.  I’ve held back and decided it might not be the right time or a good idea for fear of how it might change what you think of me.

But, I know I’m not doing you or myself any favors by not sharing the not so happy parts of my journey and as I was thinking over the last few months, I realized it’s time to share this with you.

I’ve been afraid to tell you about the 5-month period in 2014 when I thought I was going to have to close my business and give up on my dream.  It was something I never thought I would do, but there were moments when I didn’t think I had a choice.

Lucky for me, I did.

From May – September last year, I struggled to make my business work.  I had a handful of clients and the number was slowly dwindling down to almost nothing.  But it wasn’t just that,  I was struggling with something far worse…my identity.

I knew I wanted to coach.  I knew I was meant for this work and I knew without a shadow of a doubt that this was my path.  The problem came when I couldn’t quite figure out what I wasn’t doing ‘right’ in order to make my business thrive.

Looking back it became completely clear:  I was allowing others to be my guru instead of listening to my intuition.

In fact, it got so bad at one point, I was questioning my skills, my coaching, and my dream of helping other women make their dream a reality.

On more than one night I cried out of fear, worry, and pure disappointment that somehow my entire path was being thrown off and I had somehow missed the mark.  What was true was I had missed the mark, but it wasn’t in my path, it was by allowing someone else to throw me off it.

My heart and soul knew exactly what I needed to do, but I didn’t trust it.  I allowed certain mentors and coaches lead the way because I was so new to it all, I thought they knew everything.  And the truth is, they did…for their own path, but not for mine.

It took 5 months of desperation, fear, and distracted worry to lead me back to what I set out to do in the beginning…change lives.

It took many tearful nights and a whole lot of doubt for me to get to a space of clarity to see that yes I did know how to make things happen and I could listen to that inner voice inside that was telling me all along it would all work out.

Turns out she’s pretty smart.

Looking back on those moments, I am so glad I didn’t give up.  I’m glad that I reached out to the right mentors that didn’t tell me what to do or try to convince me to do it their way.

I found people that would support me in my vision, who believed in me, and helped me tap into that power deep inside that helped me stay the course and not give up.

Did they question me when I became too fearful to fly?

Yes, but out of love and the desire to see me soar.  But what they did for me more than anything else is remind me that above all else, I have to follow my heart-the very thing I teach all of my clients.

You see coaching isn’t about leading you in one direction or another or telling you how to do something.  It’s a co-creative journey that when done well, will lead you back to the power you have had all along to create the amazing life of your dreams.  Coaching is about clarifying your desires, uncovering your fears and other blocks, and empowering you in a way that reminds you, anything is possible.

I learned early on with the right support, you can make anything happen and it’s exactly why I do what I do.

After those scary 5 months of uncertainty, I now stand taller and more proud of my decisions because I know I am making them from the heart and honestly, there is nothing better.

If you have a dream that you aren’t ready to let go of and you need someone to support you along the way, I have 2 spots left in my Breakthrough program for February before my rates increase March 1st.  Now is the time to make the commitment to yourself and the dream that has been following you for years. Are you ready to take that next step? If so, I invite you to sign up for a free 30-Minute Consultation to chat about how I might be able to help you.  If I am not the right coach for you, I promise to help you find one that is.