I would love to be able to begin this post with a celebration for Day #83 of my consecutive 100 day mediation challenge, however I cannot. I not only missed one day somewhere in the first 50 days of meditation, but this past weekend I missed about 3 more. (Insert disappointed face here.)
While there is a part of me that is slightly disappointed that I missed so many days in a row, a larger part of me is proud for only missing a total of 4 days in the 83 that I have been practicing. I recognize that to be a mighty accomplishment for myself. Especially since I wanted to start a meditation practice for many years and could never stick to it. Now I know I can and despite my disappointment for missing so many days, I have learned a great deal about myself and my practice.
I have learned:
- The type of meditation I do depends on my mood. Sometimes I like guided meditations, while other times I do my own to music or in complete silence. None of them is the right way or better than the other. I simply listen to what I need in the moment and proceed with what feels right for me.
- The ideal amount of time for me on a daily basis is about 15-20 minutes in one sitting and it feels really great to do a morning and evening meditation.
- My patience for the ups and downs of everyday life is much better when I have meditated on that particular day and I feel a more calm sense of peace after I meditate.
- I am definitely more optimistic and positive in the moment and spend much less time focusing on what hasn’t yet materialized in my future. It is true that meditation is a mindful practice for the moment, at least for me.
- Meditation has become a habit for me, not just a ritual or a challenge. It is a habit I have wanted to create for many years, but never thought I had the time or the focus to do it, and now I have.
With that said I realize missing 4 days of meditating is not the end of the world and while I may not have made it to the 100 consecutive days of meditating like I wanted in the beginning, I have learned a lot in the process not only about meditation in general, but how it applies to my life and my practice.
I have also decided to begin a new 100 day meditation challenge (officially starting April 1st for ease of calculating days), but this time the motivation for the challenge is to simply reap the benefits of meditation on a daily basis while reaching (and surpassing) my goal of 100 days. Much like healthy eating and exercising, meditation is a daily practice meant to be a lifestyle change, not something you do only when you feel frazzled. So with that ultimate purpose in mind I will begin again.
Not meeting a goal doesn’t automatically mean failure, sometimes it is just a reminder to take a moment to reset and begin again.
What are you hitting the “reset” button for today?