Things I’m Afraid To Tell You…

About a year ago I read a blog post from one of my favorite bloggers (Jess Lively) listing various things Jess was afraid to share with her readers.  (You can view her post here.)  For some reason this morning I was reminded of it and inspired to share with you my own list of things I am afraid to tell you.  By sharing this list with you, I hope to make these things a little less scary for myself and bring comfort to anyone reading this that has their own list.

Things I Am Afraid To Tell You

• I care about what others think of me far more than I care to admit.  I like to think of myself as an out of the box thinker and overachiever, but there is a part of me that wants to be well liked and accepted by others despite my desire to be unique.

• I can be very emotional at times.  I feel my feelings very deeply and for a woman who wears her heart on her sleeve, this can become very draining. (I am learning to let some of that go, bit by bit, but in my heart of hearts, I am just one big ‘ole sap.)

• I have a deep fear of failure and many times it stops me from doing the things my heart desires most…but this is getting better with each new dream I tackle.

• Sometimes I think if I could just win a million dollars, life would be better.  (Materialistic I know, but I have thought it more than once even though I know money doesn’t equal happiness.)

• There are times when I am convinced I know nothing and doubt my ability to inspire anyone to change their lives.  Those days I feel like a fraud.

• Rejection in my work, personal life, and creative ventures is one of the biggest fears I have and I know the only way to conquer it is to accept it as a part of life.  (I am still working on that. )

• I am a spiritual person, but not in the traditional religious way and I often hide my alternative beliefs (on social media sites and my blog) for fear of being seen in a negative light.

• I have days when I feel weak and days when I feel strong.  The strong days are beginning to outweigh the weak and I now realize my journey is worth every single valley just so I can experience the view from the mountain top.

So, those are some of the things I am afraid to tell you.  Now that I look back at them it isn’t as scary as I thought.  I am who I am, and despite the often difficult road I have traveled to get here, I wouldn’t have it any other way.  I am who I am because of where I have come from and I accept that I am a work in progress…most of the time.